April 21, 2016
Boy, for the past few days, I really got the interplay between question and awareness. It is so important to keep asking.
My initial awareness on how to respond to an email I got from a family member gave me information and yet I had the sense that there was still something just a bit off. I could have sent the response, it was ok. That wonky feeling kept me asking more questions, though, and more awareness showed up; more questions, more awareness until it felt clean.
In the end, everything was different for me. I had become aware of what was going on for that family member which completely changed my response. Also, I was beginning to look at how this awareness might impact my interaction with the person from here on out.
Yes, at times it was frustrating and uncomfortable. In the end, though, I am so glad I stayed with it. I gained so much understanding that I can use in the future. How does it get any better than that?
I got that from now on I will not stop asking and through this asking gain more and clearer awareness. That is important for me. Questions I ask are:
What is needed here?
What is this creating?
Will this create more?
What will my life be like in 5 years if I choose this / don’t choose this?
With asking questions like this, I can choose to stay on the ‘surface’ or, by continuing to ask, I can go to more and more depth. Question and awareness lead to many possibilities from which I can choose. And, there is is no wrong choice, just choice that gives me more awareness which, in turn, will get me to ask more questions.
I get that this may sound exhausting to some. For me is is rich and allows me to live a life of joy and happiness.