All of Life comes to me with ease, joy and glory. I have begun again to say it in the morning and in the evening. On and off, I have said it before. This time, though, there is a different energy to it. I don’t use it as a way to pretend, to distract me from being present with what is going on for me. Now I mean all of life, the good, the bad and the ugly comes to me. I receive it and don’t push it away, being willing to be fully present with it.
The result is something amazing. The other day, I looked in the mirror, was present with my body and how it looks. Interestingly enough, at that moment there was only gratitude for my body, kindness towards it and not all the judgment I had had just 2 days prior when I was looking at myself. Right now, being willing to be present is not easy with everything that is going on for me. It was easier to pretend it is not as bad as it really is. And I remember hearing: you can only change what you own. So I guess, there is hope for me after all 🙂
Making the demand of myself to be present; to stay present no matter what comes up; to ask a question and then be present with the energy that comes, up not looking for a cognitive answer is not easy for me. All my life knowing the answer was important to be accepted by my parents and my ex-husband. Today, I know that this does not allow me to perceive the possibilities: “shut up, be present, and all of life comes to me with ease, joy and glory.