I would like to talk about backdoors. In your house, a backdoor allows you to get out of the house, sometimes its your way of sneaking out. Now my question is: How many backdoor do you have in your life?
Whhaat? Backdoors in my life??!! What do you mean? I don’t have any backdoor! Hmmm!
A while ago, this is a question that came up in Access Consciousness. I had the above reaction AND I stayed with the question. This meant visiting the subject again and again. You know what I discovered? I had plenty of backdoors. More than I cared to have. I have closed the ones I became aware of and, today, I wonder how many I still have open.
So what do I mean with having a backdoor? It’s your way of checking out of our life when things don’t go the way you want them to go. Almost everyone has them and they are all different, based on personal choices we’ve made. Some people check out by no longer participating in their life, by stopping to create their life; others may do it literally through illness and death. In either form it is done mostly unconsciously.
I had stepped out through a backdoor by making my world ever smaller, less and less travel, less photography, less interaction with others. I do not know where I would be today if it were not for an intervention by Dr. Dain Heer in a class I was taking. I still continued doing things that were not a contribution to my life, yet they allowed me to look busy and productive. Today, I make demands of myself to create things I desire, to change things that do not work for me.
Changing pace, shifting focus, doing something that is fun for you, that’s not leaving through a backdoor. Closing your backdoor also means committing to YOUR life. No more excuses, no more regrets, no more shrinking back because someone judges or criticizes you, no more playing small and not acknowledging the greatness you are, the miracle you are. Writing this, I am aware of how easy it sounds and how much presence in my life is required to live it. It’s so much easier to choose the same old, same old instead of making a new choice, one that enlivens you.
I invite you to look at your life and see if or where you have a backdoor, where you are not fully committed to your life. It is a different way of being in life; where I actively create it, and one that is so much more exciting, at least from my perspective.